It’s a No.
Finally heard back from my work about my proposal to work remotely. I got a firm and resounding no. This is disappointing for a number of reasons, most notably a) holy sh*t I am going to be jobless and penniless and oh my god I actually WILL be living in a van down by the river and b) I was really enjoying parts of my job and was hoping they would allow me to expand into the role I was really gunning for, which was to be a full time Excel VBA Developer. All chance of that happening is gone, which is a bummer.
Of course, there are pros and cons to every situation. The cons here are obvious: No more job, no more paycheck. But instead of dwelling on the obvious downside of instability and joblessness, I instead will focus on the pros, and try to see the sunny side here:
1. I get to start from a clean slate.
My routine will not just be changed, it will be shattered. Not only will I physically be in another location, but all of my worries and concerns and annoyances with my previous job will be gone. I can shut the book on that chapter for good and move on to the next.
2. I get to create the type of career I truly desire and envision for myself.
I discovered that what I most enjoy doing is problem solving and creating tools to help automate processes and streamline workflows. It is genuinely fun to me – when I get going on it, I don’t want to stop. I also realized that working remotely and having the freedom to work flexible hours was the dream for me. I now have the chance to try to make that happen. If I had continued to work for my current employer, I would have been tied to their ideas and timelines and structures. Now I have the freedom to pursue what I truly want. And frankly, it feels wonderful to have a dream at all. I have spent too much time not knowing which path I should take. Finally I see the path clearly. It is a winding and difficult path, but at least I have identified it. That feels like an accomplishment.
3. I answer to no one.
Sure, this means no one is signing a paycheck to me at the moment (terrifying). But it also means that if I can manage to build up a network of clients, I will have more freedom to choose what I want to spend my time on. It will be difficult at first, I’m sure. I don’t really know where to start, and these next few months will probably not be smooth sailing. I can only hope that if I work hard and focus, one day my dream will come to fruition. It seems like a long way off, but you have to start somewhere, and I’m starting here and now.
4. We get to leave earlier.
No reason to wait until the end of April! Kelly and I have bumped up the timeline so that we will be leaving at the end of March. We have a lot to do between now and then!